Contemplation

I enjoy my work study job at school. While is can be stressful at times [I'm talking you're backed up ten orders and are the only one making coffee drinks kind of stressful] it's also predictable; the coffee ingredients never change and you fall into a rhythm. It's repetitive and in a sense...strangely meditating.

You're probably thinking, "Wow, she's crazy. How can you find a stressful situation like that meditative?"

I like to think because it's solvable. So many things in life are unpredictable and sometimes there's just this need to have control over the chaos.

I also like to attribute my above average ability to manage stressful situations to my successful high school stage managing career and to all those who helped me get there [you know who you are]. That's just me being a little cocky I suppose. Hmmm, cocky is the wrong word. Let's call it a healthy dose of self confidence. (I like to boast about my stage managing career whenever I get the chance. I'm very proud of that part of my life.)

Speaking of being a little overzealous, I realize that my ambition to take on a film about the realities of depression for my first film may not be realistic, under the time restraints, to do it justice. That is something I did consider when I first thought of the idea but I think it needed a little time to sink in. In my mind, I was thinking, "Why go for small when you can reach for the stars!" I suppose I was just a little over ambitious this time. Another project for another time then.

And now off I go to deliver joy to the hearts of those who need it, via the coffee medium of course, and get my healthy dose of meditative rrrrrrrrrrepetition.